False Hopes

So, today i have to babysit A.J. So i got here around 7:30ish, like usual, and P and M were still here, which isnt too uncomon...and they had the news on...wut else would they be watching in the morning, B.E.T.? And they had this thing on about how blogging has become so popular and ppl say it's a form of therapy for them...and i was like DUH! i've been telling ppl that for a year! anywho, they said it works so well because it's so anonymous and wutnot...and there's where i think i made my mistake when i started this thing way back in September/October. I never kept the damn thing anonymous! hell, i put the link in my AIM profile for f*ck's sake! all of my friends know the link and can read it anytime they fancy. which, i dont mind necissarily, but there are times when the ppl u want to "vent" about the most are those whom you love enough to SHARE YOU'RE WEBLOG LINK WITH!!! so those very people that may or may not be reading this are, at times, the very ppl i am stressing about, with, and/or for. and who do u vent to when you want to vent ABOUT the people you vent TO? i know, i'm confusing, just bare with me, i promise there's a point to all of this!

And don't get me wrong, it's not like i dont totally love my few friends who actually read this peace of crap that i like to call my journal, i do. i love you! i promise, you guys mean the WORLD to me, and i dont know what i would do without you! Incase you're a "random guy" (i ain't some random guy! i'm MORRICE!) who decided to read this, i'm mostly talking about AP and Mikey, seeing as they are the only ones who usually read this, unless i have audience members that i'm not aware of! and i love them both...speaking of both, MIKEY!! did you die? where the crap are u, i havent seen u all summer, with the one exception of AP and i stalking u while u worked...W.T.F. mate??

It's just....you know how sometimes it's just kind of comforting to write EXACTLY what's on you're mind without worrying who's gonna stress about wut u write or your "true" opinion of them? yeah, that's kind of what i've lost by telling ppl my link. i dunno, i just wish i could write anything and everything that's on my mind all the time...but i suppose i'd have to have an anonymous post to do that now, wouldn't i!

Anywho, this was just something i've been pondering this morning, and BTW...isn't it wierd how watching a show about the wonderful world of blogging makes me want to blog? i mean, i actually got up off my fat ass, walked down the stairs, and started the computer, just because i had the urge to blog! anyway, i'm off to check my email cuz i have no one to play with, as A.J. is still sleeping. i'll write more bone-chilling antics from the life of Schoon later, i promise. Bye yall.
~Me~