blogging is just code for bitching...

welllllllllll not much to add...

my financial aid came, so im stayin in school...because of the whole bricy thing, i think i wanna transfer somewhere closer to home...it sucked, i wanted to be with my sister right that second, instead, i had to worry about having gas/money and suffer through a three(+) hour drive! not cool man, not cool!

fort dodge would be better....i would only be an hour and a half away from home, all of mom's side of the family is right there, i could go see scottie whenever i wanted...fort Durrty does sound pretty swell.

then again...there's always DMACC....but i dont know if i wanna live at home again? im so confused, oh well i'll figure it out.

im off to the rec. bye yall :)

it's been a while...

HOLY SHIT it's been a long time!

im just so sick of all the shit goin on right now, i need a release, and since im sick of listening to people talk about this, it's time for a new blong. im stoked.

i dont wanna be at school anymore. i'm sick of it. i dont know if it's cuz im about to start ragging or im really just sick of everything....but i dont know if i can take much more of this. i think it's just that the reality of life has started kicking my ass and i just wanna go back to when my life was easy, when my daddy took care of every single problem i ever had and i had my REAL friends around me all the time, i could hang out with my brother and sister whenever i wanted, and the only thing i had to pay for was gas. oh yeah, and lets face it, that was about a buck cheaper too!

patty keeps getting on my case cuz i dont wanna drink with her as much as we used to, it's just rediculous, why do we need to freaking drink every day!? i never drank once in high school, and i still had amazing friends and some pretty damn good times! why is alcohol necessary? IT'S NOT! everything just seems so much more simple when im back home. well except for the fact that i dont get to spend enough time here and i wanna spend all of my time at Jesse & Kimmy's. but NO. i can't. my mom freaks out, im sure dad doesnt like it much either, and my sister never has time for me anymore. smalls and i are good, we're always good. he's the one thing in life i can count on.

updates......we have a puppy! his name is rocky and he's adorable :)
i'm a godmother!!!! jesse & kimmy had a baby boy, Ely Daniel. he was born december 20th and i love him SO much.
i wouldnt have even made it this far if it weren't for nick...you fucking rock baby
i want to be done with school.
i dont know what i want out of life, other than to be a mother and a wife, and i dont see either of those things happening any time soon AT ALL.

i think i will see if mom wants to watch a sappy chick flick, that way i can cry and it wont be wierd.

i miss speech.
i miss band even more.
oh and that's another thing, i havent played a clarinet in for freaking ever, and it used to rule my life...god i miss music.

i wanna go work out, but i dont have my work out clothes here with me..blahhh

i need to talk to kalli or courtney or nick or SOMEONE because i'm going insane...i hate it!

Miller Ave.

So i moved into my apartment last week, and i love it. i have 2 roomates, patty (who i knew last year, we chose to live together) and Cece, who i just met when i moved in. they both freakin rock my face off. cece is just like me, and that makes her the coolest bitch i know :) the girls in 60 6 rock hard core style baby :) well cece wants to watch a movie so i'll give a real update lataz. bye yall.
-meg-

woot for being excited.

so i'm pretty sure i'm going back to kirkwood :)

that makes me really realllly happy :) :) :)

dad and i are goin to CR tomorrow at 7am to register...yay for that :)

coolio

it's summer

it's HOT

i wanna go back to CR

i think somethin might happen with a certain boy

i love sweet corn

i wanna go back to Eagle and see mi familia

that's about it. bye yall! :)

let the rain fall down...

i just want more rain...


it's beautiful.

Leave The Pieces, The Wreckers

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go.
Baby it aint fair, you know
You just keep me hangin round.
You say you dont wanna hurt me,
Don't wanna see my tears...
So why are you still standin here
Just watchin me drown?

And it's alright, yeah, i'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just...take your love and hit the road.
There's nothin you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just...leave the pieces when you go.

Now you can drag out the heartache,
Baby you can make it quick...
Really get it over with and just let me move on.
Don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me,
I can clean it up you see
Just as long as you're gone.

And it's all right, yeah, i'll be fine
Dont worry about this heart of mine
Just...take your love and hit the road.
There's nothin you can do or say,
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just...leave the pieces when you go.

You're not making up your mind,
It's klllin me.
You're wastin time,
I need so much more than that...

yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah,
yeaaahh

...And it's alright, yeah, i'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just...take your love and hit the road.
There's nothin you can do or say,
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just...leave the pieces when you go.

Leave the pieces when you go...