Mean People Suck!

why is it that the smallest things can set me off? Today in spanish, Senorita gave us "free-reading" time...which isnt really FREE, seeing as we have to read spanish!...and i was lookin at one of her spanish magazines and saw a bunch of sex stuff and almost nude pictures of these really beautiful spanish women, and i was like "senorita! i'm not sure if some of these magazines are school-appropreate!" and she just laughed and said that the spanish culture is a lot more open-minded and what not...and a certain bballer says to me as senorita is talking "god, shut up, Megan! just stop talking!" i just want to know why all of the stupid basketball-playing-stuck-up-"i love my self"- ASS HOLES in this school think that they can treat people how ever they want. i mean, i know i dont LIKE everyone, bcuz that would be annoying and impossible, but i am not MEAN to anyone except those stupid little girls who spread rumors about my baby sister. i mean, really..if i would have talked to any one of the seniors who i wasnt REALLY good friends with...the way bill talks to everyone but those idots he hangs out with, i would have gotten whip-lash from verbal assalts! it's disgustingly ridiculous how mean they think they can be to people just because of their last names and their extra-curricular activities! i'm sick of being treated like a flaming pile of shit just because i have more important things going on in my life besides bouncing a little orange ball up and down a court for an hour and drinking boos with my friends all weekend! I HATE being in high school and wish these stupid little children would just GROW UP and stop acting like the whole freakin world lives and breathes to fit their needs. Thanx for lettin me blog and i do feel a bit better. i am off to go hide in the corner of the library and sleep till school's over. Bye yall.
~Me~

Tired Love

I love wrestling. I love boys. I love giving backrubs. I love me some AP. I'm freakin tired. Just thought you'd all like to know!

P.S. for the record, i'll post a good one later.

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I walk this empty streetOn the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!

Welcome to My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in you room...
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears ya screamin

No, you dont know what it's like
When nothing feels alright.
You dont know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breakin down
When no one's there to save you
No you dont know what it's like...
Welcome to my life.

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feelin so left out?
Are you desparate to find somethin more...
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around...
With their big fake smiles and their stupied lies
While deep inside you're bleedin

No, ya dont know what it's like
When nothin feels all right
You dont know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breakin down
When no one's there to save you
No, ya dont know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think i'm happy, but im not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
YA never had to work it was always there
You dont know what it's like...
What it's like.....

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breakin down
When no one's there to save you
No you dont know what it's like, what it's like....



Welcome to my life.

Good Mornin!

Once again, Happy New Year! Well, AP is still sleeping (i should be doin the same but for some reason i cant sleep!) so i thought i'd blog a bit. I'll just start from the begining of my day yesterday. I woke up around 7ish cuz i had to babysit Avery and everyone was leavin. Mom and Dad and Smalls and Foof all went back to Eagle/Uncle Scott's house for the weekend and tye took the boys to their Gramma Vickie's house and then went with dad. So of course i had to get up to say bye to everyone! then i mosied over to Margo's and she filled me in on the details of Avery's condition...he had surgery on Wednesday...poor kid had a hernia! :( so after i knew i all i needed to know about the poor guy, she took off for work and me and avery kinda hung out cuz he was in a really cuddley mood...then he fell asleep for a couple hours. so basically, it was a normal day w/avery and i got home a lil after 4. Then i had to talk to AP cuz i wanted her and Mr. Nips to come over and chill for New Year's...so i chatted it up with AP and then went and picked her up. we then went up to my room and paroosed (i dont care if i have a spelling comprehension problem, you know wut i ment) thru my cds so we could find some good tunes to listen too...then as we were walking down the stairs, AP broke into song, which she so often does, and said (in a rather excited tone, mind you) oh i could DEFFINATLY dig singing in this house!(it echoes a lot). Then i suddenly remembered that we got a Kareoke machine for Christmas!!! i told AP and that made her exceedingly giddy, so ofcourse we had to play with that. so we were jumping around singing at the top of our lungs for about 20 minutes and then i had to call Michael bcuz he had yet to arrive. i called and he said he was ready and about to walk out the door. so we went back to the Kareoke machine and found the Grease cd...so obviously we had to try that one out. We were right in the middle of "You're the One That I Want" and Alisha goes over to the window that leads to the porch and pulls back the curtain to reviel Michael standing there staring at us! it was great, i screamed cuz he scared the crap out of me, he laughed cuz it was rather funny, and we went right back to singing. Michael came in and said he could hear us all the way out in the street....so AP and i just sang louder and had a great time. Then we just kinda hung out and talked while the 3 of us took turns on the new computer. we then decided to head to DQ for supper, but no one believed me when i said that they were closed for the stupid winter break thingy that they have....so we left my house and went to DQ only to find that they were closed...hmmmmmmmm i wonder who said that b4 we even left....lol. so, we then decided to try Darrell's place...which was also closed. we came back to town and hit up Subway, where we at last had success. We ordered great sandwhiches and i paid for AP's (i owed ya one buddy!!!) and mikey bought us cookies! so the we went back to my house and ate dinner and i called the parentals to inform them on my plans for the evening...dad heard mikey talkin in the backround and decided he needed to speak with him...so they talked for about 5 minutes and then i told dad that AP was gonna stay the nite and told him to be smart and drive safely (ya can never be TOO carefull on New Year's eve ppl!!!). So then we went up stairs and watched Anchor Man...sorry but i found this movie totally stupid...well, everything but the part about the cheese weel and the bloopers durring the end credits. Then we all headed over to AP's house so she could get her clothes and leave a note for momma and poppa Picht and what not. while we were walking back out to the car, the Picht parents arrived! so we had to go back in and chat with them a bit...let them know our plans and find out wut they thought of Meet the Fockers. So after we gabbed and laughed for a good 20 minutes and i had a couple of scotcheroos (yummy) we went back to my house. Then we decided on watching Dodge Ball after AP called justin and told him to call, then called him back and told him maybe not to call cuz she was tired...then contemplated calling him back and asking him TO call cuz she slipped into Slumber Party Mode and was wide awake again. so newayz, we started Dodge Ball and then AP and i came downstairs cuz she wanted to check her email and didnt wanna come down here all by herself...lol. so i went with and then she went back upstairs and i checked my email and had a grand ol' time. so, i went back upstiars and (big supprise) the movie had taken a backseat to the conversation that Mikey and AP were having...so i joined in...and right in the middle of our 1 AM conversation, the phone rang...i picked it up and it was Justin..AP was super stoked. so mikey and i both said hi to him and then decided to go downstairs to give them some "alone time". so we went down and watched Pimp My Ride...great show. then mikey went back upstairs to see if AP was dead (i'm serious, his exact words were "i'm worried about Alisha. I'm gonna go see if she's dead.") and i was like..ok mikey..i'm gunna sit right here and watch pimp my ride! lol. so about 5/10 minutes later alisha screams and told me to get on the phone to chat it up with justin. so i was on the phone with justin and mikey and ap for a good half our or so...great times i tell ya...that kid's a stud! then Justin decided it was time to go bcuz he had to get up and run at SEVEN AM!!!! and it was already 2:30ish. so we all said our good byes to justin and then hung at my house for a bit longer....as Alisha and I were getting increasingly tired, we kept "kicking out" mikey, but he refused to get his lazy boney butt off my floor and leave!!!! after about 15 minutes of excitement, mikey officially decided it was time to go...so i walked him to the door and AP just layed on my bed...lol. Mikey left and AP and i proceeded to do the whole "girl-talk-hot-boys-slumber-party-thing...we stayed up till a little after 4 and then both crashed....but not before i could take a piss at least 20 times!! i'm serious...way too much Agua was consumed by Schoon yesterday! So we both fell asleep and had good dreams...which leads me to this morning when i woke up cuz i had to pee AGAIN!!! and couldn't get back to sleep. so i wondered down here and decided to blog this wonderful blog and entertain you all once again! lol. well, i dont have much else to say, so everyone have a great New Year and just remember....graduation is only FIVE MONTHS away!!!!!!!!!!! Bye yall!
~Me~

P.S. i have to pee again. Just thought you'd like to know!

2005 BABY!!!

Michael and AP are here and we're havin a ball! i'll write more after i feel a bit more awake and dont have house guests. i love all my FRIENDS and hope everyone has/had a happy/SAFE new year's eve!!!! have fun! bye yall!!!
~Me~