schoooool's out for summer...

so i've officially moved home for the summer. i was really upset for a while cuz im kinda sad about not bein in CR anymore, but i think i should work enough to go back and visit a few times. i just havent really cried about it yet, so when i do, it's gonna be a bad deal.

so dad and i went downstairs in the basement to look and see if our basement would be a good place for me to live...and guess what, we're gonna start cleanin it out tomorrow :)

im uber stoked to have an entire floor of my house to myself...i even have a computer room and everything...yay :) the only downside...those of you who know me well know that i have to get up to go to the lou like...every 4 hours!!! so i 'll have to go all the way upstairs..oh well, i think i can live with it :)

anywho, i'm tired and i have a basement to clean out tomorrow so i better get to bed. bye yall!

~schoon~

and im so sick of love songs, so sad and slow...

why do i have to feel sad and lonely all the time? im sick of not being loved the way i want to be loved. yes, i have the BEST friends in the whole world. but why am i not LOVED? im sick of it. you couldnt find a more loving person, longing to be romantic, mushy SAP than me......so why have i been alone for almost 20 years? how fair is that? why is my life like this? im sick of it. i dont care what the "plan" is, im sick of being alone and lonely. i hate it. it's the worst feeling in the world. i just wanna go to bed and cry for the rest of the night/morning. so that's what im gonna do. whatever, fuck it. i dont care anymore.


















ok...so i do care...it doesnt matter either way.