Why?

R.I.P. Kat and Molly.

why do these things happen?? these girls were fun and kind and sweet and did not deserve one thing that happened to them on Saturday night. and you can bet that Kat's dad didnt deserve to find his daughter and niece lifeless and alone in that apartment...

Every girl..hell, every PERSON, in Cedar Rapids is scared to go anywhere by themselves. my friends and i have hardly gotten any sleep since sunday because we're afraid someone's gonna break in and go on a rampage durring the night. we're scared to sleep. we're scared to be alone. we're just scared. and all because one....person? had to take the lives of two young women.

kyle, you disgust me. how could you do this? how can you call yourself a human? why these girls, they were your FRIENDS! you fucking bastard, i hope you get everything you deserve.

Kat and Molly...don't worry, he'll pay. R.I.P. girls, you'll be missed by us all.

whew!

so i talked to lynsie and we're all good now. asa and i are good too. the three of us went to a movie...Silent Hill....BAD MOVIE!!! and you know it has to suck cuz i like everything! not good, at all! or scary. it made me laugh, not even kidding. asa and lynsie had the same reaction. piece of shit film.

but yeah, we talked, we hung out, we're all good now. thank goodness! :)

ouch....

sooo last night..lynsie told me that she and asa are dating and have been for a few days now. aren't best friends the greatest!?

i dont know...

is it ok to be mad at your best friend? because i am. i mean...it's a relatively stupid reason to be upset, however, i am. i really really like this kid named asa and lynsie knows it. lynsie, who does infact have a boyfriend (mike), continues to flirt shamelessly with asa, giving him backrubs, making sexual comments, asking if he can unsnap a bra with one hand...things of this nature. now normally i wouldnt mind this, but she KNOWS i like him...and this is the second time this year she's done this to me, and the last time she ended up KIND of with him. and now she's doing it again...and OMG....i wanted her to come home with me this weekend cuz my gramma is sick and i didnt wanna make the whole trip by myself. i asked her to come with me and she said she couldnt because her younger sister had a band concert on saturday nite, now being a band geek myself, i totally understand the reasoning behind this and understood. however, not even 2 hours before, she had told asa that she would go out to his mom's house with him ALL DAY SATURDAY and spend the nite so they could get drunk....i mentioned this when she told me she couldnt come with me. she said she changed her mind and wasnt gonna go to asa's, she was gonna stay in CR and then go to her sister's concert. that was fine, i understood.

last night i got a phone call from lynsie's mom Julie asking if lynsie was with me or if i knew where she was because she hadnt been home for the concert and hadnt called. i told julie that i was home for the weekend but i had a couple people i could call and ask. the first person i called was asa. he was drunk at his moms...and so was lynsie. i talked to lynsie and said that her mom called and was worried and she was supposed to call her. then i just hung up and didnt say another word to her.....and continuted to fume over the whole situation for the rest of the night.

why does this always have to happen to me? i fall for a guy completely, and he falls for one of my best friends. you may remember the post i made about wondering if something was a date...yeah, that day was spent with asa. and i still like him. i spend most days with him and we hang out and have a great time. thursday he came over and had me go all over CR with him while he ran erands, then we went back to his house and cleaned all day and hung out that nite and the next day as well. maybe im just being a silly little girl about the whole thing, but doesnt that seem like something you'd do with a girl that you liked a lot? i mean...why me? why would he ask me to go with him to pay his bills and buy parts for his car and go grocery shopping if he didnt like me? GRRR

and i think that the thing that hurts the most is that i've talked to lynsie about this and she continues to behave the same way. i understand...she's a flirt, she cant help it. but would she be acting this way if her boyfriend were sitting right next to her? NO. dont get me wrong, she's one of my best friends and i love her more than anything. but why is she doing this to me? and why the hell cant i just talk to her about it???

maybe i'll just have her read this...

La Tortura

Alejandro Sanz:
Ay padrita mía
Guárdate la poesía
Guárdate la alegría pa'ti

Dame,dame,damelo,oh

Shakira:
No pido que todos los días sean de sol
No pido que todos los viernes sean de fiesta
Tampoco te pido que vuelvas rogando perdón
Si lloras con los ojos secos
Y hablando de ella.

Ay amor me duele tanto
(Alejandro Sanz)Me duele tanto
(Shakira)Que te fueras sin decir a donde
Ay amor, fue una tortura perderte.

Alejandro Sanz:
Yo se que no he sido un santo
Pero lo puedo arreglar amor

Shakira:
No solo de pan vive el hombre
Y no de excusas vivo yo.

Alejandro Sanz:
Solo de errores se aprende
Y hoy se que es tuyo mi corazón

Shakira:
Mejor te guardas todo eso
A otro perro con ese hueso
Y nos decimos adiós

Alejandro Sanz:Esto es otra vez esto es otra vez no.

Shakira:
No puedo pedir que el invierno perdone a un rosal
No puedo pedir a los olmos que entreguen peras
No puedo pedirle lo eterno a un simple mortal
Y andar arrojando a los cerdos miles de perlas

Alejandro Sanz:
Ay amor me duele tanto
Me duele tanto
Que no creas más en mis promesas
Ay amor (Shakira)
es una tortura (Alejandro Sanz)
perderte (Shakira)

Alejandro Sanz:
Yo se que no he sido un santo
Pero lo puedo arreglar amor

Shakira:
No solo de pan vive el hombre
Y no de excusas vivo yo.

Alejandro Sanz:
Solo de errores se aprende
Y hoy se que es tuyo mi corazón

Shakira:
Mejor te guardas todo eso
A otro perro con ese hueso
Y nos decimos adiós

Alejandro Sanz:
No te bajes, no te rajes
Oye negrita mira, no te rajes
De lunes a viernes tienes mi amor
Déjame el sábado a mi que es mejor
Oye mi negra no me castigues más
Porque allá afuera sin ti no tengo paz
Yo solo soy un hombre arrepentido
Soy como el ave que vuelve a su nido

Yo se que no he sido un santo
y es que no estoy hecho de cartón

Shakira:
No solo de pan vive el hombre
Y no de excusas vivo yo.

Alejandro Sanz:
Solo de errores se aprende
Y hoy se que es tuyo mi corazón

Shakira:
Ay ay ay ay ay
Ay, todo lo que he hecho por ti
Una tortura perderte
Me duele tanto que sea asi
Sigue llorando perdón
Yo... yo no voy
A llorar por ti ...

i can sing almost the whole song...IN SPANISH!! that's right, soy el hermano.

short and sweet

the family's here for Easter and i <3>

rain is so cool.

i wonder...

is it a date if you go with a guy to his mom's, sit out on his pond fishing with him, go to dinner and a movie (both of which he paid for),then hang out afterwords and spen the whole day talking and laughing...

or just 2 friends chillin?